Elania Prydferth Chwerwfelys :: (Read-Only)

Description

   Elania Prydferth Chwerwfelys very easily sticks out from all other pixies and people in general - she looks like a monster.

   Elania stands at around 2'2", and looks to weigh around 15 pounds. Judging by the hourglass shape of her body, it was clear that she would have made an absolutely beautiful and stunning woman were it not for the scars from cuts and skingrafts from burns that line and patch nearly every inch of her body. Under the rags she wears, her body is unhealthily thin, her rib cage pushing up against the skin makes her appear almost as if she is a lich. Her slender legs and arms similarly are unhealthily thin and matted with past tortures, and what was once likely perfect and clear complexion is now rough from such wounds.

   Resting upon her neck is a head and face that, like the rest of her body, must have been beautiful at one time, but now are unrefined and unattractive. Where her eyes should be, are now only empty, black sockets, with a single slashing scar on each side of the eye sockets, suggesting how they painfully came to be removed. Her nose, although containing the necessary elements to be attractive, is offset from an unknown blow that must have broken it; yet it evidently was never healed nor corrected, which leads one to believe that it is a source of ongoing pain. Her semi-long, flowing hair, appears as if it once had the color of the eternal black of the shadow plane and texture like delicate strands of shining silk spun by the Spider Queen, Lolth, now appears with a hint of gray, suggesting that her appearance only betrays her phsychological stability more than her actual age. And anyone who would know Elania even relatively knows that her moderately thin and broken lips have never nor will ever smile.

   Elania often needs to hide her body and face in layers of old rags of clothing to prevent any onlookers from readily noticing her less-than-welcoming physical features, which are a strong source of her shame. There have been a number of times when she has been run out of town by an angry mob due to some commoners believing her to be a monster or demon.

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Elania Prydferth Chwerwfelys
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Personality

Myers-Briggs Personality Type: INTP

   INTPs are pensive, analytical folks. They may venture so deeply into thought as to seem detached, and often actually are oblivious to the world around them. 

   Precise about their descriptions, INTPs will often correct others (or be sorely tempted to) if the shade of meaning is a bit off. While annoying to the less concise, this fine discrimination ability gives INTPs so inclined a natural advantage as, for example, grammarians and linguists. 

   INTPs are relatively easy-going and amenable to almost anything until their principles are violated, about which they may become outspoken and inflexible. They prefer to return, however, to a reserved albeit benign ambiance, not wishing to make spectacles of themselves. 

   A major concern for INTPs is the haunting sense of impending failure. They spend considerable time second-guessing themselves. The open-endedness (from Perceiving) conjoined with the need for competence (NT) is expressed in a sense that one's conclusion may well be met by an equally plausible alternative solution, and that, after all, one may very well have overlooked some critical bit of data. An INTP arguing a point may very well be trying to convince himself as much as his opposition.

   Mathematics is a system where many INTPs love to play, similarly languages, computer systems--potentially any complex system. INTPs thrive on systems. Understanding, exploring, mastering, and manipulating systems can overtake the INTP's conscious thought. This fascination for logical wholes and their inner workings is often expressed in a detachment from the environment, a concentration where time is forgotten and extraneous stimuli are held at bay. Accomplishing a task or goal with this knowledge is secondary. 

   INTPs and Logic -- One of the tipoffs that a person is an INTP is her obsession with logical correctness. Errors are not often due to poor logic -- apparent faux pas in reasoning are usually a result of overlooking details or of incorrect context. 

   INTPs in the main are not clannish.

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Enneagram Personality Type: 4w5/Self-preservation, Direction of Integration

Fours are self-aware, sensitive, and reserved. They are emotionally honest, creative, and personal, but can also be moody and self-conscious. Withholding themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. They typically have problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, and self-pity.

Fours want to express themselves and their individuality, to create and surround themselves with beauty, to maintain certain moods and feelings, to withdraw to protect their self-image, to take care of emotional needs before attending to anything else, to attract a "rescuer."

Personality type four is known as The Individualist because Fours maintain their identity by seeing themselves as fundamentally different from others. Fours feel that they are unlike other human beings, and consequently, that no one can understand them or love them adequately. They often see themselves as uniquely talented, possessing special, one-of-a-kind gifts, but also as uniquely disadvantaged or flawed. More than any other type, Fours are acutely aware of and focused on their personal differences and deficiencies. 

Healthy Fours are honest with themselves: they own all of their feelings and can look at their motives, contradictions, and emotional conflicts without denying or whitewashing them. They may not necessarily like what they discover, but they do not try to rationalize their states, nor do they try to hide them from themselves or others. They are not afraid to see themselves �warts and all.� Healthy Fours are willing to reveal highly personal and potentially shameful things about themselves because they are determined to understand the truth of their experience�so that they can discover who they are and come to terms with their emotional history. This ability also enables Fours to endure suffering with a quiet strength. Their familiarity with their own darker nature makes it easier for them to process painful experiences that might overwhelm other types. 

Nevertheless, Fours often report that they feel they are missing something in themselves, although they may have difficulty identifying exactly what that �something� is. Is it will power? Social ease? Self-confidence? Emotional tranquility?�all of which they see in others, seemingly in abundance. Given time and sufficient perspective, Fours generally recognize that they are unsure about aspects of their self-image�their personality or ego-structure itself. They feel that they lack a clear and stable identity, particularly a social persona that they feel comfortable with. 

While it is true that Fours often feel different from others, they do not really want to be alone. They may feel socially awkward or self-conscious, but they deeply wish to connect with people who understand them and their feelings. The �romantics� of the Enneagram, they long for someone to come into their lives and appreciate the secret self that they have privately nurtured and hidden from the world. If, over time, such validation remains out of reach, Fours begin to build their identity around how unlike everyone else they are. The outsider therefore comforts herself by becoming an insistent individualist: everything must be done on her own, in her own way, on her own terms. Fours� mantra becomes �I am myself. Nobody understands me. I am different and special,� while they secretly wish they could enjoy the easiness and confidence that others seem to enjoy. 

Fours typically have problems with a negative self-image and chronically low self-esteem. They attempt to compensate for this by cultivating a Fantasy Self�an idealized self-image which is built up primarily in their imaginations.

In the course of their lives, Fours may try several different identities on for size, basing them on styles, preferences, or qualities they find attractive in others. But underneath the surface, they still feel uncertain about who they really are. The problem is that they base their identity largely on their feelings. When Fours look inward they see a kaleidoscopic, ever-shifting pattern of emotional reactions. Indeed, Fours accurately perceive a truth about human nature�that it is dynamic and ever changing. But because they want to create a stable, reliable identity from their emotions, they attempt to cultivate only certain feelings while rejecting others. Some feelings are seen as �me,� while others are �not me.� By attempting to hold on to specific moods and express others, Fours believe that they are being true to themselves. 

One of the biggest challenges Fours face is learning to let go of feelings from the past; they tend to nurse wounds and hold onto negative feelings about those who have hurt them. Indeed, Fours can become so attached to longing and disappointment that they are unable to recognize the many treasures in their lives. 

As long as they believe that there is something fundamentally wrong with them, they cannot allow themselves to experience or enjoy their many good qualities. To acknowledge their good qualities would be to lose their sense of identity (as a suffering victim) and to be without a relatively consistent personal identity (their Basic Fear). Fours grow by learning to see that much of their story is not true�or at least it is not true any more. The old feelings begin to fall away once they stop telling themselves their old tale: it is irrelevant to who they are right now.