I am not pissed I lost. Bad things happen in games, it is why we play. The thrill of success with the dangers of failure. However, the GM just demonstrated quite clearly our characters are MINOR PLOT. We ran into battle trying to make a difference, and die to mooks. Akhensel gets to fight the biggest bad in the game.
I was looking for my character to die, that seems to be the thing people aren't getting. I am not pissed I am dead or that I lost.. I am pissed that through the entire game I was a footnote. I had 3 private scenes, 1 with you, 1 with a cat, and 1 with Amora. THAT'S IT. Do you know why I was being such a magnet for controversy? Because I wanted drama that included me as well. The story teller gave that to a bunch of people, but all of mine I had to go out of my way to get. Caern, Mago, Matsu, Shiny, Amora, Akhenshel... all had awesome scenes which furthered the main plotline of the story.
THIS is why I say I am frustrated. The dice, were not on my side. Neither was the story teller.