The drugs are wrecking havoc with your head. You're actually strapped to the bed, drooling on your pillow.
I am doused in kerosine and set aflame with a flamethrower, burning my body into a find black ash. The ash is scopped up and taken to a street corner where a homeless man looking for a cheap hit pays five dollars and snorts me up his nose. 5 days later I have passed through the street bum, who deficates me out into a public toilet. I was washed into the sweage treatment plant where I am purified by chemicals, sterilized by ultraviolet radiation, and filtered out of the remaining water to become minte dust particles floating in the waste water ejected into a river. I am them, grain by grain, engulfed by 7,649 individual fish, 3 crayfish, and a leatherback turtle which somehow wandered up from the ocean.